fic talk: needs more (insert green equivalent of coal)

[sword_logic]

i was going to complain elsewhere about some writing woes, and then remembered just why i made this account. long and short of it: kinda ran out of steam on sbsbs, and it really sucks. i was looking over the notes i've got setting up the rest of the fic and honestly i was on some excellent bullshit when i lined everything up, but currently my attention is split heavily between destiny and dnd and it's really hard to find the steam™ to write anything at all for sbsbs.

at the same time, though, i a) hate the thought of leaving something on infinite hiatus, and b) don't want to just leave it forever unfinished, because of course there's a chance i might go back and finish it, but i'm increasingly tempted to do a "done, not perfect" and post the chapters i have written (which i'm all very satisfied with), link to my (extensive) notes, and accept that i might go back and finish this fic Some Other Time. i've said this a million times but writing and planning this fic taught me so much and i don't want to just toss it away, but on the other hand, it's been feeling like a weight on my shoulders lately and juggling the internal pressure of sbsbs "impeding" me from working on S11 au and DMing/planning eating its own amount of time and energy, thinkg about sbsbs has been getting me down lately. and it sucks! it truly sucks.

we'll see what i end up doing with it, though. i'm sure there's some way to satisfy both the loud and whiny halves of my brain in this situation. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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[larissa]

first and most important: if you wrote this in markdown, then you need extra backslashes to not lose an arm in the shrug emoji, like so: ¯\\\_(ツ)_/¯

ANYWAY. as someone who wrote a complete longfic four years ago and is only now picking it back up, uh, i feel you. it’s been an albatross around my neck for years. on the one hand, it’s done, i can just post it and be done with it. on the other hand it’s objectively a mess and there are parts that make zero sense. there’s this one great part where a character gets buried in a rockslide and then he’s back three chapters later as if it never happened because i needed him for the plot. #justwritingthings

for real though, it’s something you have to figure out for yourself and it sucks. all i can say is this: find out the solution that’s going to make you happiest long-term, for when you come back and look at this fic in a couple years. if that means setting it down for a bit, that’s okay. if that means posting what you have, that’s okay too. not finishing it right now doesn’t invalidate the work you’ve done and the lessons you’ve learned.

most important of all, if you feel like you’re forcing it, it’s just going to suck. it’s going to suck writing it, it’s going to suck reading it — for you, not for others. it would read fine, but it’d feel lousy to you, because you’d know you could have done better. and if that’s something that’s gonna stick with you, let it sit. (am i speaking from experience here? MAYBE. look i have a perfectionist brain okay it’s hard to shake this stuff)

OR none of this is any help at all, which is okay too :’) i’m sure you’ll figure out something that works. 💗

[sword_logic]

oh no now that emote looks a little............ disarming B) (ty though!)

this was a Good Thing to read, especially because i feel like my forced writing stick out like a sore thumb — maybe just to me, but at the end of the day, i'm the one who's going to have sand in my crop about it. it's hard to balance a) wanting to write, b) not forcing it, and c) actually writing. ty for your thoughts and encouragement!! i'm def gonna take a good amount of time to sleep on it and mull it over and try to figure out something that isn't gonna make me wince when i look back on it, lmao. 💖

[larissa]

💗💗💗