fic talk: wrapping up (just kidding)

[sword_logic]

every time i thought to myself this week "hmm, i might be done and ready for final edits," i think of something else to change or add. mostly that's been a good thing, but i'm probably edging into nervous nitpicking at this point.

i've been grappling with ye olde "what if this is a bad and lame ending" anxiety for the past day or so, and i am quite through with it, thanks. on one hand, i am genuinely unsure if i've wound everything down enough by the end (wow... almost as if i should set down this doc for a few days and let it rest, huh!), but on the other, i feel like adding anything more will bloat the ending and drag it out.

on a different note, i spent all of yesterday doing a thorough re-read (and editing as i went) and not to toot my own horn, but i did a pretty Damn Good job. nitpicks aside, i'm really happy with this fic and very proud of my work. (also - wild to think that, actually, i wrote the overwhelming bulk of this fic in the past year or so.) i feel like it's accomplished everything i wanted it to do, and i got what i wanted out of it. i'm actually a little unsure of how wash and maine's relationship is going to come off to other people but like, fuck it, i wrote this for me and i'm so satisfied with how i've done it. if it also happens to hit the right notes for other people, that's cool.

but yeah, as i think out loud in this post, i should really set it down for a while. man. what am i going to do with myself after i publish this?